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Realisation hits, like a blow to my gut
Never were you there
And now I doubt you ever cared
Don't know how to cope;
How can I help them when I can't help me?
My heart is too numb to feel
Everything is broken
Thoughts are sinking in
Like a ship into the ocean, unwanted and surreal;
The only reality I know
How could I have been so blind, not to see?
My mind is too numb to reason
Fear, denial, betrayal, pain
Passing through my soul, like ghosts in the wind
Nothing is tangible
It's all a tangled, ratty mess
Only inside of me does this tempest rage
Breaking the surface very briefly
Cracking this mask, like you cracked my heart
A shattered illusion lies now at my toes
I have no direction;
There is no direction
Merely numbness, consuming, controlling
Coping, now, is my world